Is it possible one day there will be a winter season in Sahara? Or, even snowing for 5 minutes? At this moment, I’m just like hoping or praying for something which is impossible to happen.
Are we really living in a place fulfilled with destiny? If yes, where is mine? Feeling stuffy and heavy right now, tonight suppose to be a great night since it’s been sometimes that I spent my whole weekend outdoor instead of sitting at home doing nothing. It’s all started with a short nap, though it’s a really short one but I felt like it seems to be forever for me. I never thought that I’ll dream of her again, this is second time I dreamt of her in just few days, gosh…I knew this is not a good sign, I’m trying so hard not to make the same mistakes again and I had failed to do so. Is my fate really twisting me around? I dare not to think of it anymore.
Anyone could answer me why? Things started went from bad to worse, I never wonder that you could react that way; I just wanna tell you that your friend is there. Perhaps, I begin with good intention but end up with bad ending. I do trust you, you can overcome this. During the way home, I do really want to apologize with you, but the words never came out. I stuttered there, situation went silence. It really made me felt guilty, yet your dear attempt to console me that it’s not my fault for pointing him out there, as you know, it’s my attitude.
I’m really looking forward to any opportunities that could allow me to leave my home grown place even there are lot of things I reluctant to leave it, guess, that’s the only way to heal myself being wounded for so long. For “you” out there, I’m appreciate your presence in my life, the only regret I have is I do not have enough time to appreciate you and the only thing all I had give you is, sadness. Bye…for the one who had occupied my heart for so long…
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