Commitment

What goes around come around, here am I again, been missing out my blog for couple of months. Manage to snatch some times to fill in my blog here while waiting for the data transfer to complete. Inspiration is something been missing from my life in the past few months, I lost enthusiasm to complete what I’d been assigned, I lost the motivation to go further, I’m driving myself aimlessly, without direction, without purpose, just like waiting to be another failure of the decade. Commitment seems like the main factor which is missing from me, myself all this while. Commitment, what does it actually mean? Responsible? Promises? Burden? Been searching thru online dictionary and hard core dictionary, seems like I lost the definition for myself.
The major difference between someone who is highly respected and someone who being looked down is how committed they are when they in any assignment or tasks. Will you ever be late in reaching your workplace or you will simply find some excuses when the things doesn’t work as according you’d planned? Yes, nothing is perfect in this world, but please carved this deep into the mind, if a person are committed enough, they will find some way from no way. I could take a very good example from my surrounding, a known of mine, I could describe as she doesn’t have a very happy or sweet childhood like other whom they should have one. She lived with her aunt since young until she is migrating from primary to secondary school, then she start to move back to her family. There is a point I really would like to ask her, have you ever detest anyone that sent her lived with her aunt? I never direct that question to her as I could seen thru my own eyes, she could sacrificed everything for her family, as her family is more important than her own happiness. She had gave up a lot of things for her family sake, especially her mom, n her siblings. Occasionally, the same question halt in my heart over and over again, does all this worth? I know she would just smile back at me, because her family is her whole world.
This is the girl I really respect her with my whole heart  Tonight, just like an ordinary night for me, is it really an ordinary night? I have to divert all my attention in lifting away what really distract me, gosh ~~~ I really wish or hope that in someday, technology will develop a medicine or machine that could filter and extract our memory out, for the sake of selecting and removing those memories that we as a human doesn’t feel like keeping it, as the same memories haunting me for few years now. Never thought the pain still ache that much, times goes by, but the memories froze there.
Goodbye to whoever is it, you have to take a really good care yourself. Goodbye once more to you…